Love bombs and controlling moves...

 Its all about narcissists. Why empaths get cheated by their act is, they love bomb for sometime and then try to show you they are controlling your life. 

Peacock University's internal results came. And I passed in 2 subjects. The reaction from my neighbor was to complaint about the marks scored by few students(including me) lol. And she told me what she has done. It is to show that I have control over your life. For a long time, I was expecting such a public move and that's it. In my dictionary it is time to "door slam". 

Narcissist thrive in attention. Dont give your attention and ignore them, they will get hurt. And when my neighbor asked me to meet her, I refused. No need to maintain courtesy. You door slam and they will knock your door. lol. Thats what has happened.

Talked with her and now she was saying her sad story. Nice try.

She gained back her weight. And as she did not get victims, got depressed.

Nothing in life is permanent. Our beauty, brain, health, money, family, friends, etc.

Whatever we have, to sustain it, we have to take lot efforts.

My next Quest is ready?!

 Writing is therapy. 

Things won't jump/happen out of nowhere. Especially the lessons you need to learn. When you complete one lesson, another will come. I was watching the new house which is opposite to my home. Watched it when they laid the foundation. And I thought, will it be my next lesson? I just felt the pull, gravity from it.

I needed resources if I wanted to go there. I have to fill my needs first. Will it be one of them?

That house is very simple. Just an ordinary architecture. 

I remember how I got attracted towards the psychology course, and I learned a lifetime's lesson in a few days. Renting a house near my house will make the owner proud, and neighbors will envy. lol.

I have written and kept it in draft and now updating.

Nearly the house construction is over now. A little bit disappointed. Rooms are very small and each side wall has big window. Its like after fixing window, in the remaining place they have filled with a wall. lol.

Looks neat but it has so many practical difficulties.

It may make me more independent and also make my family understand it. Let's see.

In other cultures its nothing, but in this culture, its like you a freedom fighter. lol

I have so much to write. Next will be about my narcissist neighbour. I dont even have the interest to reply.

Expect the unexpected...

 Sometimes we get or face challenges that we did not expect. 

Losing weight is a challenge, I thought, but weight loss is happening as per the scheduled speed.

Feel more energetic, but faced the challenge of maintaining hair health.

I did not expect the need for collagen will be more during weight loss.  Found a solution for that.

People get mood swings during weight loss, but I did not get mood swings.  But the emotion of happiness

 was absent. Now, finding a solution for that.

Solution finder... lol

People don't talk about these types of challenges they face during weight loss on any social media. 

Wondering why!!!

The famous door slam...

 I was really bored of seeing this term when they describe Introverted Intuitive in you tube. If an introvert is hurt, then they will leave that person and never look back is known as door slamming. Sounds like a definition. lol.

It is not that simple. It can not be done in all situations. If you are hurt by a family member, you can not door-slam. Or if your narcissistic neighbor, who is in search of a victim, approaches you, you can not door  slam. They will knock on your window if you slam the door. No window slam is possible. In other words, you can't even door mat slam. lol.

In practical life, most of the time it's not possible. Narcissist are famous for breaking your boundaries. All you can do is, find their weakness and press it lightly. They will come back to you with new plan to break your boundaries again. Find another weak point and press it for 3 seconds. Sounds like accu pressure. OMG. LOL.

Continue this process till you are tired or the narcissist is tired. 

If nothing works address them directly. 

And the invisible mode continues...

 I like only the two extreme modes. Invisible or fully in the spotlight. Invisible mode helps to relax and plan. Spotlight mode is ruled by my shadow. People love my spotlight(shadow) mode. I don't think much in that mode, and it's a great performance. My best friend became my friend by seeing my spotlight mode.

Wow, what confidence, he said.

And I said, it's not confidence, it is a show off, I was saying to others, I have what you don't have.

Recently, I did not feel any emotion other than anger. The same neighbor's envy anger. lol (Refer to my previous posts to know about the owner's pride, neighbor's post)
People behave irrationally when they are angry. But I am always cool and composed when I am angry. 

I miss my best friend a lot, and he can not be replaced.

Weight loss comedies...

 I have a few interesting incidents during my weight loss journey. When I started portion control in food, a news became viral about a female dying because of a starvation diet. So my family members were scared. lol. So I found some innovative ideas for protein intake. Prepared evening snacks using daals. So my family members thought I am not serious about weight loss.

Paruppu vadai has less protein compared to medu vada.

Even I included cake in my diet, 😇 Fried rice and chicken - these 2 increases weight and I avoided it.

If you are above 35 or 40, during weight loss, body ache will be there as muscles loosen up and then tighten. Right magnesium supplement is needed to overcome it. 

But I felt energetic and active. I reduced 10kgs so far. And recently I went for shopping. I was checking dresses and a sales woman came and said, this will be bigger size for you. lol. My brain still did not acknowledge that I have reduced weight. Still I have to reduce 6 to 8 kgs.

I became an inspiration for my family members and neighbors to lose weight.

The first thing I do in morning is checking my weight. And last thing I do before sleeping is also checking weight. I am maintaining data of the weight loss process.

I dont believe in walking 10,000 steps daily. Some females avoid doing household duties and try to complete 10,000 steps. Instead I walked for some time, then did the cooking.

The Shadow...

 If you got a promotion or a good salary, what would you do? Sharing that information with family and friends.

In my case, I blog it. That's all.

The moment the news hit my brain, my shadow(it is created when you suppress any emotion) emerged from the dark. It just rewinded and showed how I did not use the money I earned for myself and gave it to others in the past.

I respect my shadow. This time, the compassion is towards myself. 

Every introverted intuitive faces their shadow. Some are conscious about it. Others don't.  Unless we accept and give the shadow its place, a person can not succeed in their life. I have seen how shadow destroys a person to the core if they do not allow/accept it.

I fill my cup first, before pouring to others' cup from it.  Amen.