Love bombs and controlling moves...

 Its all about narcissists. Why empaths get cheated by their act is, they love bomb for sometime and then try to show you they are controlling your life. 

Peacock University's internal results came. And I passed in 2 subjects. The reaction from my neighbor was to complaint about the marks scored by few students(including me) lol. And she told me what she has done. It is to show that I have control over your life. For a long time, I was expecting such a public move and that's it. In my dictionary it is time to "door slam". 

Narcissist thrive in attention. Dont give your attention and ignore them, they will get hurt. And when my neighbor asked me to meet her, I refused. No need to maintain courtesy. You door slam and they will knock your door. lol. Thats what has happened.

Talked with her and now she was saying her sad story. Nice try.

She gained back her weight. And as she did not get victims, got depressed.

Nothing in life is permanent. Our beauty, brain, health, money, family, friends, etc.

Whatever we have, to sustain it, we have to take lot efforts.

My next Quest is ready?!

 Writing is therapy. 

Things won't jump/happen out of nowhere. Especially the lessons you need to learn. When you complete one lesson, another will come. I was watching the new house which is opposite to my home. Watched it when they laid the foundation. And I thought, will it be my next lesson? I just felt the pull, gravity from it.

I needed resources if I wanted to go there. I have to fill my needs first. Will it be one of them?

That house is very simple. Just an ordinary architecture. 

I remember how I got attracted towards the psychology course, and I learned a lifetime's lesson in a few days. Renting a house near my house will make the owner proud, and neighbors will envy. lol.

I have written and kept it in draft and now updating.

Nearly the house construction is over now. A little bit disappointed. Rooms are very small and each side wall has big window. Its like after fixing window, in the remaining place they have filled with a wall. lol.

Looks neat but it has so many practical difficulties.

It may make me more independent and also make my family understand it. Let's see.

In other cultures its nothing, but in this culture, its like you a freedom fighter. lol

I have so much to write. Next will be about my narcissist neighbour. I dont even have the interest to reply.

Expect the unexpected...

 Sometimes we get or face challenges that we did not expect. 

Losing weight is a challenge, I thought, but weight loss is happening as per the scheduled speed.

Feel more energetic, but faced the challenge of maintaining hair health.

I did not expect the need for collagen will be more during weight loss.  Found a solution for that.

People get mood swings during weight loss, but I did not get mood swings.  But the emotion of happiness

 was absent. Now, finding a solution for that.

Solution finder... lol

People don't talk about these types of challenges they face during weight loss on any social media. 

Wondering why!!!

The famous door slam...

 I was really bored of seeing this term when they describe Introverted Intuitive in you tube. If an introvert is hurt, then they will leave that person and never look back is known as door slamming. Sounds like a definition. lol.

It is not that simple. It can not be done in all situations. If you are hurt by a family member, you can not door-slam. Or if your narcissistic neighbor, who is in search of a victim, approaches you, you can not door  slam. They will knock on your window if you slam the door. No window slam is possible. In other words, you can't even door mat slam. lol.

In practical life, most of the time it's not possible. Narcissist are famous for breaking your boundaries. All you can do is, find their weakness and press it lightly. They will come back to you with new plan to break your boundaries again. Find another weak point and press it for 3 seconds. Sounds like accu pressure. OMG. LOL.

Continue this process till you are tired or the narcissist is tired. 

If nothing works address them directly. 

And the invisible mode continues...

 I like only the two extreme modes. Invisible or fully in the spotlight. Invisible mode helps to relax and plan. Spotlight mode is ruled by my shadow. People love my spotlight(shadow) mode. I don't think much in that mode, and it's a great performance. My best friend became my friend by seeing my spotlight mode.

Wow, what confidence, he said.

And I said, it's not confidence, it is a show off, I was saying to others, I have what you don't have.

Recently, I did not feel any emotion other than anger. The same neighbor's envy anger. lol (Refer to my previous posts to know about the owner's pride, neighbor's post)
People behave irrationally when they are angry. But I am always cool and composed when I am angry. 

I miss my best friend a lot, and he can not be replaced.