The second half of personal and professional life depends on how a person manages their cortisol level. Because cortisol will increase if you continue the same life style.
The same exercise routine spikes it, the same food habits spike it... lol
It is a chaos.. But every chaos has opportunity for good.
This year my quest is to reduce the weight further, to be healthy and manage cortisol level when it spikes on its own.
And of course to dress up like a Queen/narcissist slayer.
Nobody wants to be others puppet. But when they are groomed from childhood, they never know it. Some came to know/realise in their middle age, some won't in their life time. The ones who realised it, pretend they did not know it, as it will break their heart, break their comfort zone. And those who don't/can't pretend, try to change their life if it is possible.
Everybody can't transform, and this post is for the ones who can't transform.
What is life if I didn't write about my dear neighbour. lol
She pretends she is doing social work(as per her norms), confident, takes her own decisions(!!!)
If you all the above why your narcissist's percentage is above 80% Can I give 90%? 😇
Most of the time her mother accompanies her when she come to meet me. First I thought it is for chit chat. Later I felt it is a controlling behavior and also somewhat like a protection. What is there to protect?
A narcissist view themselves as a broken/defected person. Thats why they pretend as if they are confident and gaslight others. They view their children as a defected product. This makes them to groom their children as an empath(to serve them) or as narcissist.
When they groom their children as a narcissist, they check everything, monitor whether their child is gaslighting others properly, plan with them how to control others.
It is when she came to meet me last time, I realized it. I saw the sadness in her eyes and how she was talking to her mother about her job as if it is the only important thing in life.
For one minute I saw a small kid, hiding behind her mother, with a toy in hand. A kid pretending that whole world is in that toy.
When the mid life hormones change in the body, the narcissist get a chance to meet their shadow which is kindness.
Change in the body and mind is painful, that the narcissist feel, I can not pretend any more. They think I can not pretend I am confident, I can not pretend as if the whole world is revolving around me. The only chance they get in their life is that time. And that time is again groomed by the narcissist mother.
I felt sad for her. It does not mean I will become a friend to her.
I understand nothing is permanent in life, the change in narcissist behavior can be a small percentage. From 80% to 75%. This is the maximum change they can do as change needs accepting one's own fault and move forward.
I dont live in fairy land to think narcissist became an empath and lived happily. lol.
Just I understood how a narcissist is groomed.
A person who don't stop pretending, till they can... (Oh such a positive way to think. lol)
My boundary will remain strong, and it is will be a strong boundary for the narcissist.
A small toy picture for my neightbour. Thats what I can do.
