Color game...

 To make my temple visit more interesting, I play a colour game with God. One of the color in my dress should match his dress color. I made a few rules. I have a few tricks to win too. lol. If I am conscious enough, I can always win.

When I was having tea, I got a follow-up. I said to myself, no need to follow up; I am preparing for my morning walk. I forgot my tricks because of this. And I remembered it when I opened the temple door. Okay, I am ready to lose. And I saw his dress. He used one of my tricks and had my dress colour. I giggled. Today, I also won the colour game.

Some people will decide marriage by the flower colour they get from God.

My colour game is for entertainment purposes only.

I went to the farmer's market. In the 1st shop I got 93 Rs, in the 2nd 90 Rs, and in the 3rd shop 93 rs. When I got that 93 Rs bill by brother looked at me. He was surprised. I said it's strange,  It has never happened. Then we got the bills randomly.

Marks are for yesterday's case study. Refer to the post here. 

I crossed one of my life's exit points today and got a boon with instructions too. I will write a book about it if I get more spiritual experiences. 

Now I have the answers to tell the Unicorn lady.

I will become more humble, playful and spiritual from today, but for outsiders I will be the same.

With more power, I am back to normal life.

Back to work.

A rare real life story - Part 3

 I met the /Unicorn lady yesterday in the temple. As usual, we greeted and smiled at each other. And I got to know more about her.

Born to a narcissistic father who had so many superstitious beliefs. A wealthy family started to crumble once the father lost his job. The next thing he did was to select a family sacrifice.

In villages during festivals, at a few temples, they sacrifice/kill a goat. Except for the goat, everybody knows the goat is going to get killed.

They brainwashed her, saying her birth star/horoscope is bad and she cannot get married. They have arranged a job for her, and they live off her salary. A narcissistic father always has a tendency to make sure of disabling the talents of their children. They don't want their kids to outshine them. The youngest son in the family was a pampered kid. Whenever he did something, the girl was asked to forgive him, as he was the youngest.

Time passed; both sons got married and had kids, and their mother died. She instructed the girl to live with the younger brother as long as possible, then to find an old-age home to stay.

The younger brother doesn't have a steady job, and most of the time he is at home and doesn't talk to her. If she talks also he will behave as if he can not hear her. If he talks, then it will be a fight.

Now, in old age, she wants to find an old-age home as per her mother's instructions to her. She thinks she has to join without informing as her family will try to find her to avoid a bad name.

She does not know that she is the trained slave of their family. 

She does not know that her family members should have assassinated her character behind her back when she was young. They can do the same thing now, and there won't be any bad name.

She believes she can change her brother to treat her with respect.

She feels bad that she worked and provided for the family, and now she is helpless.

For all the sacrifices I made in my life, what is the use? 

She asked me, " Can you tell me what to do?" I said, " Problems will be everywhere. I stayed in a hostel when I studied. One roommate will be good; another will be bad. Unless you know how to handle them, it will be tough(all my roommates are good; I just lied)

She said, "I am forgiving my brother as he is younger than me, but he remains the same". I said, How many age difference do you have, and why are you referring to him as a young boy? He won't change his attitude. He is trained from a young age by your parents to treat you like this, and they trained you to forgive him. So it can not be changed. And your brother is trained as a darling in the family, and he will remain like that only. You are suffering because of your parents' parenting. 

She said, "I am going to an old-age home without them knowing, otherwise they will come after me"

I said, "no, they won't". Then I said I could search the internet and give her the details she needed.

Since it is a case study given by the Universe to me, the verdict is that she has to continue to find truth in her next birth. Knowing it now doesn't add any value to it. She can think she has done her duty to the family. And it is time to take her back to you.

If the same thing happened to another female in her 40s or 50s, educate them to see the truth, make them rich. Make them build an old-age home where their parents can stay and their brothers' families can work. 

If the same thing happened to another female in her 20s, make the HR team in the company to contact her directly again and ask why she did not join? Educate women to have financial stability.

Imagine a soft rubber hammer, and when the judge(me) finishing the judgement, hitting it on the head of the parents and saying, "Justice served, Case closed". Imagine a quack sound when the hammer hits their head. lol.

Farewell and the coffin therapy...

 In life, we meet so many people and friends. School and college friends share fun-filled moments. It will fade away eventually. The memories of the friends who are with us during the tough phases of life will remain in our memories. And most of the time, a friend who did a good thing will do a bad thing to you, and their memories also fade away. As human being are with their dark side, if the good things they did exceed the bad things, then that memory and relationship will become cherishable. That kind of friend becomes family.

I was very comfortable with that set of friends for a few years. I was going through tough hormonal changes in my body, and just being with them balanced it. They don't know that. As time went on, there came a moment to say farewell.

I thought I was mature, and it is simple to say farewell. My body started to show stress symptoms. I didn't know it was the reason. Then it reached the stage where I needed to analyse it.

I did this therapy, and it worked. I imagined a coffin. I lay down in it and had to imagine I was going to die now and say my gratitude.

I said farewell and expressed gratitude one by one. The coffin inspiration is from this song

Once the farewell was over, I imagined coming out of the coffin. I slept with gratitude, and I connected with the collective consciousness. It talked to me and showed a scene. I think it has muted my voice, as I talked a lot in my previous visit. lol. Or I don't remember what I said.

My stress symptoms reduced the next day I did the same therapy with my family's budding narcissist. We both have outgrown our version of that time. I expressed gratitude and grieved. The bond was special once, but not any more. I buried both versions in my imagination and said farewell.

And my coffin therapy continues, but with a coffin color with my dress.

One should express grief to oneself, accept and move forward.

The freedom walk...

 Thursday, during my morning walk, I saw a big dog. A few streets have street dogs, and they won't allow any new dog in their area. They started to bark at the new dog. I was walking nearby, and to protect itself, the new dog walked close to me. I understood its situation, and I walked normally when it walked along with me.

And then it walked with me for another 15 minutes with so much loyalty. It reminded me of this advertisement. 

And it followed me to my home. I  did not allow it inside. I gave it a few biscuits and closed the door. It was sitting in front of the door for more than an hour. 

Though the gesture was kind and sweet, I don't like a dog following me everywhere I go. lol.

I got scared that the dog would follow me whenever I came out of my home. I was worried that day. I felt my freedom was taken away. lol.

Evening I went out and did not see that dog.

And I got my freedom back. lol.

I understood my limitations. 

You are my temple friend...

 Saying this to a person needs a few months and a consistent smile. 

The married lady whom I met at the temple usually talks a lot when there is an opportunity. The reason is simple. Sharing their problems with a stranger is easy, as they can not manipulate that information.

That day, she was saying to me that she was having so many things to handle in life. Her daughter's wedding is in April. She has to book wedding halls and book hotels for the relatives to stay. Her relatives are tough to handle. etc etc.... These are usual things to complain.

Then she said, "My sister-in-law said my dress should be less beautiful than the bride's dress. My sister-in-law is a good lady, but this comment hurt me".

And she added, " You don't have such problems."

At that time, I saw the old lady coming towards us. She was listening, and I sensed the old lady's anger and rage when she heard the sentence, "You don't have such problems"

Being a Unicorn, she has faced/facing so many problems in life.

I replied, Everybody has challenges in life. The old lady advised, "Don't say too many negative things when there is a wedding at your home. Do it happily".  Emotional control by the old lady was amazing. 

Next time, when I met the married lady, she said my husband and I fight a lot and seeing our life, my daughter doesn't want to get married. It took a lot of effort to make my daughter agree to this marriage.

I don't share my details, but I know a lot of details about the people with whom I interact. 

Yesterday, she asked my name, and we introduced ourselves, and she said You are my temple friend.

It is a strange thing. After knowing a lot of personal things about her, we introduced ourselves.

I accept her as an acquaintance. 

But a friend? Hmm, it is tough to become friends until it is proven.

ATM...

 Morning I went to the ATM to get money. People say that if you use cash for transactions, your expenses will be lower. I don't know whether that is correct.

I checked at my usual ATM. It said, "unable to dispense money," which means it is out of cash. The next person who entered the ATM asked me, " Is it working? I replied, no money in the machine. I went to the next ATM. One person was trying to get money from the ATM. Usually the process will be over in a few minutes. But he was trying for more time. Finally, he came out, and I asked him, " Is it working?". His face was confused, and he said, " Check it for yourself."  That reply was an unusual one. I was thinking, what a strange reaction! 

I tried to take money from the ATM. 1st time failed. The machine was asking questions in a different format. 2nd time, I entered the answers correctly and got money. Wow. I solved a different problem in the morning itself.

That person was not rude. He was unable to answer questions of the machine in a different style.

Sometimes in our life, instead of forming an opinion, we have to give time for it to unfold. Maybe our whole perception will change.

The reply the person gave was the correct one.

Lily...

 I don't get angry easily. If anybody repeats the same harmful action, then they will face the consequences nowadays. I got angry seeing my family's budding narcissist. If I did not tell them it is wrong, this kind of narcissism would grow.

And I said, if anybody disrespects me, you will be punished. I won't forget anything, and I will take revenge. Beware, my punishments will be cruel, and I won't feel bad about it.

I planted a few plants in my garden. These plants will remind me of the decision I announced today. Lily is one of them.

It is a relief...