Practice is a must...

 Hope you have read this

When I wrote that post, I  did not think that I would really get a follower. This week, I did not see her for a few days.  Then I saw her. This time she was wearing an ordinary slipper. Got tired of using sports shoes, I guess. lol

She was not punctual, and I wondered why. She herself said what she was doing. Next time she asked me, I saw you near that temple in your area. You did not come inside but continued walking. Why?" And I told her, I am not very religious to visit all the temples, and this temple doesn't slow down my pace in walking. She was looking for me in other temples. And she said something about her husband. She expected I feel jealous. I looked into her and thought, the people who get divorced will know about it after everybody knows. I also thought something is very wrong in her life as she is spending so much time in the temple. When a person is young, due to society's conditioning, they will think and visit the temple often. After midlife, most of them will understand that God can give opportunities. If we are ready, we will get the benefit. If we are not ready, we will learn a lesson and will get a delayed benefit. I don't know what my eyes reflected as I thought these things when I looked at her and saw the disappointment in her eyes. lol.

After all, in midlife, even our own body and mind have become like a strange thing, and who cares about other people's husbands?! It was like a 3-year-old kid showing another kid, see my toy, my toy is so pretty. lol.

I practice and improve my reactions by facing such people. If anybody tries to make you jealous, remember, they are feeling hollow and void and trying to fill it with others' emotions.

Lip liner sharpener

 I used pencils a long time ago, during my school days. And after so many years, I was trying new sharpeners for lip liner.

It is not easy to find the right cosmetics. You can find it by trial and error. At the same time, one cosmetics which is suitable for a person won't be suitable for another.

If the sharpener is not the right one, then the pencil will get wasted. Youtubers should put a video on finding a good sharpener for lip liners and crayons.

I have found an average sharpener and sharpened my lip liners. My make-up kit is ready.

Cosmetics companies make big money because of useless sharpeners, as the pencil will be over soon, and ladies will buy more. That is why there is no proper sharpener for lip liners and crayons.

I am ready to adopt you...

 The title is translated from the cat's meow. lol. Yesterday morning, when I woke up, a small kitten was sitting on my compound wall. It started to talk to me continuously. I translated it. It was saying I am ready to adopt you. Look, I am very cute. You have so many benefits.

My cat, which is grown now, is standing near me. I don't dare to cross my cat. I am not that brave. lol.

I said to the kitten, I already have a cat. Sorry, you can not adopt me.

Kitten was persistent. After a few minutes, it entered my house, and my cat showed its true colors. It became a warrior in a second and chased that kitten.

I already gave a warning to the kitten, but it needed a lesson.

A few days before, a small puppy also did the same thing. At that time, my cat was not there. I managed to chase that dog away. I was afraid that if my cat saw it, it would kill and eat it. 

My cat is a hunter. Bravest cat I ever had. Each cat I have had has a different personality.

Total freedom...

 I attended a baby shower today. Baby shower for Goddess in the morning. Usually, in temples, the blessed bangles are given to devotees in the evening. It is a belief that all your wishes will come true if you get it. Every year I get it from the temple in the evening. Did my dreams come true? Certainly not.

This year, I changed the tradition I follow. I bought so many bangles and gave the Goddess as an offering. And I was behaved as if I came for my friend's baby shower. Did not go to the temple in the evening to get the bangles.

True freedom is when you did not expect anything from the almighty God. And I got freedom today.

Self dependent with out expecting anything from anybody is freedom. What is freedom in your point of view?

A kind gesture...

 Today I started my morning walk very late as I felt like having a relaxing walk. I reached the temple and saw the old lady praying. I can sense her sadness. Maybe she was crying. I went near her, and I started to pray. Whatever sadness she had, it was interpreted by my presence. I left after a few seconds as I don't want to disturb her, but I know I already stopped her flow state of being sad. I know she is wise enough to see other people's problems. And when she saw me, she would get distracted by imagining the problems I have. lol.

Old people feel sad about a few things. Health, family members who don't understand them and loneliness. I felt like I should give her a warm smile at least. I changed my walking route and walked in the area near the temple. And returned towards the temple. I saw her coming out of the temple. 

She smiled at me and cracked a joke about me coming late to the temple. We both smiled and said a few words. I like this kind of ending to a scenario. We are both kind towards each other at that moment. We did not share our burdens, but gave a smile.

I came home and talked to everybody. I learned a lesson. I don't like to be a person who thinks others don't understand me. Instead, I can understand others. And I can talk to them after scolding or fighting with them. 

Past and present...

 That day I went out of the house. I did not plan where to go. Just walked and went towards the place where I got the sudden feeling to go. At that time, I felt someone looking at me. And I turned. I saw my ex-colleague.  When I turned, she just pretended to look at the other side. 

When I worked with her, she was the calm one among others, won't talk with anybody. I was thinking about what to do. I can talk, or I can continue to walk. I had a few seconds to decide.  And I thought, I don't have anything in common with her now. If I talk with her, she can feel bad for the things that I did not get in my life or life's experience has changed her to have a tough and rude mind. I just walked, did not talk. She is an extreme introvert, and I don't want to give her too many things to think. lol.

With relatives and old friends, I feel this nowadays. After a certain age, we change as per our life's experiences. If there is no bond, then it is just a vacuum. And if there is nothing common to hold the bond, then it doesn't have any future. We can pretend as if we care for others, but truly, we are strangers. I don't spend too much of my energy on such occasions. 

Relatives, ex-colleagues, and friends become strangers, and it needs a strong common factor to develop a bond after a certain age. One of the painful truths about life is that. That is why I am my own friend. lol.

I got a follower...

 Next part of this one

I went to that temple during my daily walk. I like the calm, happy and content smile of that God. How can a God have this kind of smile when he is the commander-in-chief of the celestial armies? Every day I ask him this question. lol So he gave me a few situations to understand it.

Since this is the next part, we will continue with the "another lady". Since she asked a very stupid question of me, and as I know the capacity of her and my own darkness, I started to treat her as an unknown person. People test others' boundaries with stupid questions. Even I can ask her a stupid question, "How many grand children you have?" lol

I went earlier to avoid her, and after a few days, she came earlier wearing specs. I pretended I could not identify her. She pretended that she could not see properly without specs and asked a stupid question. Most females try to copy others to prove they are smart.

She tried to copy my walking shoes. Mine is very comfortable to walk and it can be used as office wear. She bought a sports walking shoe and wears it with socks. I nearly laughed seeing that. In this hot climate, that will be very tough. Then she bought another one, but still it was similar to a sports shoe. 😇

I liked that game, and now I have started to change my ear studs to make her jealous. She came yesterday without specs and tried to talk to me. I replied with one word and gave a slight smile, and did not stop to talk to her. When a person shows their darkness, I don't look for further proof; I accept it on the 1st try.

Her behaviour was a bit strange. She is singing in front of God for 30 minutes daily. It is really tough to find time to walk in the morning, but if she is spending more time outside in the morning means she is not living with her husband. May be separated or divorced, or applied for divorce. But these divorced ladies wear all the ornaments like a married woman to avoid society's trolls.

Her singing is not good, so praying to God is a bit tough. But I will find a way to overcome it. Maintaining balance irrespective of the situation is what I am learning now.

At this rate, I have to plan what to wear for a walk the previous day itself to save time.