Changing from a people pleaser to a narcissist slayer is a process and the collective consciousness will test the progress. I learnt one thing, if I am not progressing, I have to learn the lesson once again. There is no escape from it. So I started to learn with a full heart.
I told my neighbour I can not help her. And I told her the fact, but I made sure that it should be complete opposite of the rumor she spread about me. People gossip to pass the time, and they have their own work. Gossip is not a primary thing. But inside the narcissist's mind, gossip and rumor is the main world.
I know she will think, I will help, though I said I won't. The day she realised I did not help, she panicked. And I was observing. In movies I have seen the bad people, thieves follow a strict code. They won't back stab their team. So I thought the people who gossip with my neighbour will help her. No, they did not. And I realised there is no bond between them. lol.
I did not expect her to visit me. But she came. She praised the dress I was wearing. And for the first time I saw the respect in her eyes and truth in her voice. Everybody thinks introvert won't say the reason when they cut off people. I always tell politely.
When she asked me whether I will continue the course in Peacock University, I replied, "the professors are bad. I had very good professors in my college days. Why would I create bad memories about professors? Why would I create new memories that are bad? Why would I replace good old memories with bad memories?" She thanked me. And I know she understood the answer was meant for her.
I have not seen a narcissist turn into a good person in my life. But a narcissist slayer can control/contain the damage they create. After all collective consciousness also teaches them to evolve.
I saw the whole life choices my neighbour made as a narcissist. I understood her life better than her and understood how many times the collective consciousness has tried to learn the lessons. But it is tough when the mother is a narcissist.
It does not mean I learned my lessons fast. I am a slow learner. I am still sitting in the same classroom learning to slay the narcissist for many years. When I complete it, life will present me with different life choices where I can learn to evolve further.
Part 1 narcissist-slayer
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