Last night I calculated expenses to complete the course. And decided I can not afford it. Its fun when I get the schedule for classes today.
The people with whom I am planning to attend the course are rich, travel in AC 1st class only. My finance allows sleeper class.
So I know, this is how it is going to end...
Know what? I did not consider this factor. And I realized it now only.
Most people think distance education is cheap and easy to learn. Truth is it is not. I got study material which is not at all relevant to the text books given in syllabus. So I have to study both. Fee is less but when you travel to attend classes, stay and food costs more.Thus distance education is costly if you are far away from the place you are learning.
If you are in calendar year batch, your semester 1 & 2 exams will conducted at the year end. Continuos exams with out holidays. Oh My God!!!
I know all these things after joining only.
I concentrate on the things on which I have control. So I study.
Itharkku thaabe aasai pattai balakumara song is playing in my mind.
So what happened?
I got study material and was very much disappointed by it.
Study material was prepared by 5 to 6 professors, but they forgot to prepare from the text books mentioned in the syllabus.
Text books are easy to read and this study material is like a drunken man's rambling.
I am very much disappointed.
So I was thinking how they will take class? From the study material or from the text book?!!
Every bad thing has some good effect.
After studying that study material(!!!) my work related study is looking easy and simple... lol
Some times we wish for things to happen, but at that time we get second thoughts. Wish dont have logic(my wishes are like that, but after happening it will be like I perfectly planned for it with future outlook!!!) I am not that wise, but my intuition is wiser.
So instead of wasting time to get confused, I eliminated the worries about "things which are not in my control" and allowed the wish to happen.
1st chinna chinna aasai - is happening...
I thank The Universe for making it happen.
I write when I have negative emotion.
Good news first. I got admission but now confused about joining.
Confusion is good or bad?!
Can I join and try for one semester?
I have to depend on others to attend the classes.
I need counselling to join psychology course, lol.
I am always gifted with good friends. I can say its a boon or blessing.
I recently got a new friend. That friend is the reason for my weird thoughts.
Usually my friends are straight forward. This friend always beat around the bush.
Usually my friends ask directly if they want to clarify. This friend cross varies by asking tricky questions or being sarcastic.
I always give people benefit of doubt. But that too has some limit, right?
Usually my friends respect me. This friend acts like giving respect.
My usual friends are very much different from this new one.
How can I call a person friend, when they make me angry?
Certainly not.
I dont want your friendship and I dont expect anything from you.
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When others ask me something or need something from me, I have never felt like this. That too when people expect me to do which I dont want or compell to do. So I thought what is difference between them and beggars?
Beggars ask for money. Others are asking money nicely, ask your hard work, your talent, your company and especially your time. Then in what way they are different from beggars?
You are rich when you dont want anything from others. In that case I am super rich.
For the people who have money, their time and money are the most valuable thing.
For the people who dont have money, time is the only valuable thing. Infact it is more valuable than a rich peron's time.
Most people are wise. But I am average and get wise once in a while. May be I get wise thoughts rarely.
"To live to the fullest one should tisk it fully". And many take less risks. Like standing in the beach and let the waves wash your feet. Is that taking risk? If you swim in a sea with whales you will be alert and prepare yourself to face it. Or you can die also.
Life well lived.
Everybody knows time is precious. Even I know that. But when I realise that? When my "Me time" is breached. Whoever it is, I dont like them, even though they dont know its the time I allocated to myself. When thinking about time, how much time I should have wasted for others?
Hmm. sounds sad. Time for others is more than Me time. So no more time for others. Only some grace time for the people who like me or act they like me. Lol.
Some people are afraid of dying alone. But I am not. I like being with Me. Pasr time rectified by this, only Universe can understand this line.
Happy ending is waiting. Keep writing.
When the reason for a wish gets invalid, the wish also fades away. My wish started to get fade away. Also it is some what like it is no more my wish.
In one day what a change.
How reasons got invalid?
I can learn psychology by reading books, no need to enroll in a course. Friendship can be developed in other ways too. Since I am lazy, why to travel?
So my wish got busted by myself. Even if I got admission, I think I wont join.
Happy ending. Keep writing.
We get so many wishes in our day today life. Whether our wishes get fulfilled or not, we keep on wishing for so many things. We take efforts to make the wish to come true when we are serious about it. I thought of blogging things which I wish and update whether it happened or not.
Wish 1 : To study MSc Psychology
Reasons : I have/had an attraction towards psychology from my college days as humans looked like Alien to me(Now I understood I am the alien, not others though ... hahaha).
I got a new friend and she is planning to study psychology. Friendship develops when people have common interest and goals.
I want to test how my brain works if I study after so many years. Exams and assignments will be fun.
I can travel saying I am going to study...
I can be busy on weekends..
What can go wrong?
My application can get rejected as my certificate are not so clear and looks dim.
So I will update soon whether this wish got busted or fulfilled soon.
More wishes to come.
Keep writing Devilish Angel. It needs courage to say my wish didnt happen to others.
I am blogging after many years and thinking about it rewind so many things. And it was interesting.
We always show the positive side of our life in social media, not the painful part. Then how it will help to face the problems in life?
Looking back the things which were important that time is not important now. At one moment certain thing may look like important but it will lose its priority as time goes. This important thing keeps on changing through out our life.
So now, what is important to you at this moment?
