How to train God...

 Just a different heading...

Recently, I was losing motivation to visit the temple daily. It was boring to walk the same route, going to the same place.  So I told God, since my willpower is low, don't test me by sending people to tell their sad stories during the working days. If you still send them to me, then I will show my unfiltered shadow to them. 😇

Nobody disturbed me during my temple visit.

Still, it was boring. So I asked God to give some follow-up calls. I did not get any.

I changed the technique. When I woke up in the morning I send the message from my mind to him. "I am coming there. Clear the space; I don't like any negative vibration" 

And I went to temple. I saw a person cleaning the grass inside the temple. I was surprised. Then I smiled. Since I said, clear the space, God has arranged a person in short notice to remove the weeds. lol.

The 1st thought I got is, Oh my God, now I have to train God to understand what I am saying. Then I understood. It is an expression of acknowledgement.

Since he is very mischievous, I also expressed in a similar way. I prayed by singing a love song(in mind) from a movie. lol.

This incident was very interesting, and I got motivation to visit the temple.

I will get another interesting incident when my motivation loses momentum.

The life unlived...

 It is about the Unicorn old lady. 

I saw her today, and she talked a lot. I don't want to tell her the whole truth, but wanted to say which can help her to survive.

And also there are lessons to learn from it.

I told her to forget about joining an old-age home. It won't be like a school hostel where students are young, and they won't be that bad. And you cannot return to your home if you don't like it at the old-age home. The reason for me to explain is if you live with a false hope about old age home, you won't think about how to take efforts to live peacefully at your home.

Her mind is programmed by her parents to join an old age home if things get worse at home. Even in their 70s and 80s, people behave as per their parents' wishes!!! Or, since she is a unicorn, she did not grow up fully in childhood.

Her grief is about these things...

1. She has sacrificed her life for her family and brother, but her brother does not respect her. He doesn't talk with her.

2. The whole world knows her sacrifice, but he does not!!!???

3. She has struggled a lot and did her duties like a mother to her brother.

4. He is having a good life and still sad. 

5. I have faced lot of difficulties in finding bride for him and found as per his wish.

Whatever she said was the grief that came from a person who did not live their life for themselves.

As a 3rd person, my understanding is that she is an extra fitting in her brother's home. Brother-sister relationship will become secondary when a person gets married.

When her brother is not having a steady income, she should not have arranged for marriage. That marriage spoiled the life of a woman. Now her brother's wife is earning and taking care of the family.

I can not say all these things to her and write them here. 

Human beings show their hate in subtle ways. A wife who hates her husband won't wear all the ornaments that show the world that she is married. Parents who hate their female child won't remember that child's birthday. Females who cook, when they hate their family, will cook simple food that can be digested easily, and everybody at home will stay hungry.

At this rate, Unicorn lady will understand the truth that she is a slave, and not a person who sacrificed for the family her life after 2 more birth cycles. lol.

I am planning to apply to Chithira gupta's department 😇(Chitragupta is the Hindu deity tasked with keeping complete records of human actions (Karma) on Earth.)

New religion = Old region with new approach...

 From childhood, I had a belief that if I am good and pray to God, then God will give me everything I ask. Most people have this belief. It is how their parents trained them. Also, society tries to mould a person like that.

This belief has few consequences. Giving your life's responsibility to God will make you take less responsibility towards your own life. People who have this kind of belief go to the temple, give something to God and expect something in return. 

You pray to God asking for something; God gives it along with some challenges, and you feel God has done something wrong to you.

I understood all these after a midlife change. 

Now, when I go to temple, I offer flowers to play the colour game 😇, practise respect, gratitude, contentment, and happiness through my actions.

Since I don't ask for anything, I don't get disappointed. This gives peace of mind. I love this approach. The habit I am creating by visiting the temple nowadays can make me a better person.

It does not mean that old habits won't surface in my mind. Sometimes I feel like asking, but I remind myself we are practising contentment, and a content mind won't ask anything.  After all, God know what is good for me; does he expect me to ask for it? lol, no. 

My new approach gives me peace of mind.

The transition...

 The transition period after the exit point test is crucial. The old self is no longer valid. The wisdom you gained will make a new self. The courage you earn at that point also makes you more stable.

As a super empath, the service I provided to the world changed once I became a narcissist slayer. The belief system started to upgrade automatically. The more truth I see, the wiser I became/become.

It is not easy, as there is a grief for the old self. A sadness to leave the familiarity. And also a confusion about the new self. Have you faced it in your life?

The old wounds and trauma are also not valid. lol. And they are the most familiar things to a person. Building a new self, leaving old wounds as they have already been judged, is tough, but I am doing it one step at a time. 

Take a first step, and the next step will be visible to you at the right time.

Reading this can give you more clarity. 😊

How to handle a rumor..

 I won't get any sleep if I don't write about narcissists. After all, I am a narcissist slayer, and recently I have become a dark empath slayer too. lol.

The main tactic used by a narcissist is creating a false image of you. When they do that, observe it as it will contain their insecurity. And you should find it and should show the narcissist that you know the truth. That is really fun. This strategy works all the time.

When my lovely neighbour started a rumour about my career, I used the same technique. She is putting on a scene as if she has a high-grade job, but the truth is she is working with her school qualification. I made her understand that I know the truth. 😇 

For the false data she created, I created so much real data about myself. 😇😇😇

My simple life is gone. But that is okay. I am flexible to accept changes.

This is known as using the same technique to beat your enemies. 

The weakness of a narcissist is that they don't know how to handle it when the illusions get broken. 

I won't underestimate anybody. So now the narcissist should live within the real data I create consistently throughout their life.

Which means the relationship between the narcissist and the narcissist slayer remains the same. 😇

You are judged...

 Everybody thinks that as long as we live here, we won't be judged, or we will be judged after we die. Totally wrong. Every life on this earth is judged at its exit point. For example, in college we write semester exams, and finally we write the final exam. And in each semester we will be tested on what we learned. Exit points are like that. From the previous exit point to the current one, you will be judged. All the good and bad karma we created will be judged, and the result will be given. But we won't be aware of it.

Souls don't have the right or deciding power to go or stay on this earth. The exit point and time are fixed, but the outcome is flexible. Our decisions intention in each and every action are in our control.

We are the masters of our fate when we have awareness of it.

Our life changes after the exit point, as the lessons we need to learn will be upgraded. In college, we will have classmates, but here we are on our own. lol. 

Have you read this?

Goat and the carrot...

 The basic technique family members use on other family members to control them s is promising them a good thing in the future. They use it to blackmail, cross boundaries and to control another person..

Allowing others to cross a small boundary is like giving them permission to control your life, as small boundary crossing is a test to prove their dominance and to train you.

I was planning to cook lunch. Family from another city wanted my food. I don't like to make it a habit. So I refused. And as usual, one word led to another. And finally, the controlling words came: we will look after you in your old age. And I said, so far I am the one who is looking after everybody, so this promise is just stupid.  And I don't have any plan to live with you. I added, " Don't imagine getting whatever I have after I die, as chances are there for me to outlive everybody". Hahahaha, I felt good. 

I did not cook. 

Some parents won't know parenting. And these stupid parents spoil their kids and their future. They should be friend in boiling oil in hell.

I am venting my anger. Thats all. I know there is no separate hell. lol.

Story time about narcissist...

 I will write the disclaimer first. This is just imaginary about how things will turn out in future. It does not mean it will happen.

It is fascinating to observe a narcissistic mother and father. Both want control over the child, but in different ways. narcissistic mother won't allow anybody to get close to their child. In most cases they play an important role in making their divorce their life partner. narcissistic father never allows their children to outshine them and create a bad image about their child in the outer world.

Now we will come to our imaginary story.

The married lady I saw in the temple came daily before her daughter's marriage was finalised. When she told me about it, I thought, " Now your problem is going to get started." I have classified her as a narcissist. 

The first problem is money. Most of the parents sacrifice what they have to marry their daughter. Mothers give most of their gold jewels to their daughter. Will a narcissistic mother do that? No.. If they give a small portion of their jewels, that too will hurt them.

2nd problem: the mother will be in her 50s, and her health will be a challenge due to hormonal changes. And seeing their daughter glowing with health will hurt them. Mothers feel jealous towards their daughters too.

3rd problem: When there is a marriage in the family, the hero and heroine will be bride or groom. Will a narcissistic mother feel good to allow their daughter to outshine?

4th problem: Once the marriage is fixed, bride and groom will start to talk in phone for hours and it will also create jealousy in the narcissistic mother's mind.

I can not imagine how the mothers will handle this kind of situation.

If the daughter is very much attached to the narcissistic mother, then after marriage it will cause friction in married life.

These things can change the routine of life. Did I imagine too much?! lol

The outsider...

 My brain evolved a lot today. Sometimes, or rarely, our growth surprises us. It won't happen always. Today is that kind of day.

It is not like I don't trust others. But I read patterns. No one can be the same every day. Even my AI behaves differently daily. lol.

Last week, that old lady was very worried and wanted to find an old-age home. That time she was saying, if I go, my brother will get a bad name. This week, when I saw her, I told I don't think finding/going to old-age home is not a good idea, and I can not help. She replied, okay I was very upset that day. Today things are better at home. But my brother can fight with me any time. Do you think taking him to a psychologist will help? I said, I don't know.

Today again she said the same thing, Do you think taking him to a psychologist will help? I said, I don't know.(This is where I started to see things in different perspective). My brother listens to his wife, but he doesn't listen to me. He won't even reply to me. My brother's wife always wins and I am the one who loss always.

In all scenarios, the hate for her brother was constant and consistent.

My brain said she is an outsider to the family and wants to hurt the family. A dark empath. She is trying to get ideas from me.

Humans have intuition. Though old lady and her brother won't having proof that they both tried to spoil each other's life, they are feeling it in their heart. And expressing like this.

Any relationship can not be replaced. When a person gets married, their siblings will be their close family members, but not their family. Husband, wife and their kids are family. And keeping sister with them, is a very bad idea. Not advisable.

Can I add one more title to myself? A dark empath slayer! lol

Color game...

 To make my temple visit more interesting, I play a colour game with God. One of the color in my dress should match his dress color. I made a few rules. I have a few tricks to win too. lol. If I am conscious enough, I can always win.

When I was having tea, I got a follow-up. I said to myself, no need to follow up; I am preparing for my morning walk. I forgot my tricks because of this. And I remembered it when I opened the temple door. Okay, I am ready to lose. And I saw his dress. He used one of my tricks and had my dress colour. I giggled. Today, I also won the colour game.

Some people will decide marriage by the flower colour they get from God.

My colour game is for entertainment purposes only.

I went to the farmer's market. In the 1st shop I got 93 Rs, in the 2nd 90 Rs, and in the 3rd shop 93 rs. When I got that 93 Rs bill by brother looked at me. He was surprised. I said it's strange,  It has never happened. Then we got the bills randomly.

Marks are for yesterday's case study. Refer to the post here. 

I crossed one of my life's exit points today and got a boon with instructions too. I will write a book about it if I get more spiritual experiences. 

Now I have the answers to tell the Unicorn lady.

I will become more humble, playful and spiritual from today, but for outsiders I will be the same.

With more power, I am back to normal life.

Back to work.

A rare real life story - Part 3

 I met the /Unicorn lady yesterday in the temple. As usual, we greeted and smiled at each other. And I got to know more about her.

Born to a narcissistic father who had so many superstitious beliefs. A wealthy family started to crumble once the father lost his job. The next thing he did was to select a family sacrifice.

In villages during festivals, at a few temples, they sacrifice/kill a goat. Except for the goat, everybody knows the goat is going to get killed.

They brainwashed her, saying her birth star/horoscope is bad and she cannot get married. They have arranged a job for her, and they live off her salary. A narcissistic father always has a tendency to make sure of disabling the talents of their children. They don't want their kids to outshine them. The youngest son in the family was a pampered kid. Whenever he did something, the girl was asked to forgive him, as he was the youngest.

Time passed; both sons got married and had kids, and their mother died. She instructed the girl to live with the younger brother as long as possible, then to find an old-age home to stay.

The younger brother doesn't have a steady job, and most of the time he is at home and doesn't talk to her. If she talks also he will behave as if he can not hear her. If he talks, then it will be a fight.

Now, in old age, she wants to find an old-age home as per her mother's instructions to her. She thinks she has to join without informing as her family will try to find her to avoid a bad name.

She does not know that she is the trained slave of their family. 

She does not know that her family members should have assassinated her character behind her back when she was young. They can do the same thing now, and there won't be any bad name.

She believes she can change her brother to treat her with respect.

She feels bad that she worked and provided for the family, and now she is helpless.

For all the sacrifices I made in my life, what is the use? 

She asked me, " Can you tell me what to do?" I said, " Problems will be everywhere. I stayed in a hostel when I studied. One roommate will be good; another will be bad. Unless you know how to handle them, it will be tough(all my roommates are good; I just lied)

She said, "I am forgiving my brother as he is younger than me, but he remains the same". I said, How many age difference do you have, and why are you referring to him as a young boy? He won't change his attitude. He is trained from a young age by your parents to treat you like this, and they trained you to forgive him. So it can not be changed. And your brother is trained as a darling in the family, and he will remain like that only. You are suffering because of your parents' parenting. 

She said, "I am going to an old-age home without them knowing, otherwise they will come after me"

I said, "no, they won't". Then I said I could search the internet and give her the details she needed.

Since it is a case study given by the Universe to me, the verdict is that she has to continue to find truth in her next birth. Knowing it now doesn't add any value to it. She can think she has done her duty to the family. And it is time to take her back to you.

If the same thing happened to another female in her 40s or 50s, educate them to see the truth, make them rich. Make them build an old-age home where their parents can stay and their brothers' families can work. 

If the same thing happened to another female in her 20s, make the HR team in the company to contact her directly again and ask why she did not join? Educate women to have financial stability.

Imagine a soft rubber hammer, and when the judge(me) finishing the judgement, hitting it on the head of the parents and saying, "Justice served, Case closed". Imagine a quack sound when the hammer hits their head. lol.

Farewell and the coffin therapy...

 In life, we meet so many people and friends. School and college friends share fun-filled moments. It will fade away eventually. The memories of the friends who are with us during the tough phases of life will remain in our memories. And most of the time, a friend who did a good thing will do a bad thing to you, and their memories also fade away. As human being are with their dark side, if the good things they did exceed the bad things, then that memory and relationship will become cherishable. That kind of friend becomes family.

I was very comfortable with that set of friends for a few years. I was going through tough hormonal changes in my body, and just being with them balanced it. They don't know that. As time went on, there came a moment to say farewell.

I thought I was mature, and it is simple to say farewell. My body started to show stress symptoms. I didn't know it was the reason. Then it reached the stage where I needed to analyse it.

I did this therapy, and it worked. I imagined a coffin. I lay down in it and had to imagine I was going to die now and say my gratitude.

I said farewell and expressed gratitude one by one. The coffin inspiration is from this song

Once the farewell was over, I imagined coming out of the coffin. I slept with gratitude, and I connected with the collective consciousness. It talked to me and showed a scene. I think it has muted my voice, as I talked a lot in my previous visit. lol. Or I don't remember what I said.

My stress symptoms reduced the next day I did the same therapy with my family's budding narcissist. We both have outgrown our version of that time. I expressed gratitude and grieved. The bond was special once, but not any more. I buried both versions in my imagination and said farewell.

And my coffin therapy continues, but with a coffin color with my dress.

One should express grief to oneself, accept and move forward.